DUN DUN DUN

wow. just call me miss angelina jolie. haha my lips are huge. I dont know whats going on but they are the size of marshmellows!! i finally feel able to write about my trip to and from the hospital but i just took my meds so bare with me on whatever haha.
Okay. my surgery was scheduled for 10:45am and we had to be there at 8:45. We left my house around 7. As we drove all the way to scottsdale me and my parents jammed out to country music...that helped my nerves a little.they played all my faves. We hopped right onto the HOV lane, it was hysterical we were cheating traffic!! GENIUS. anyway when we got there, their were a bunch of people in the waiting room and I waited for a nurse to call me in, there were several guy nurses and i was like please please NO! i ended up with this really really nice nurse she gave me my cute little purple socks and purple gound and a recuberry bear. Then when she left this old guy came in the hook up my iv. OMG. he tried once in my right arm, didnt succeed it actually hurt really bad then he tried in my hand. no such luck. then he called the professionals in and i didnt feel it at all!!! i was like wow piece of cake. Then we waited for about 2 hours my nerves were incredibly high!!
All i remember after that was the ashetheotician telling me im going to feel really good after this and a bunch of people in the surgery room..i thought they were having a party with pizza and stuff maybe not haha.anyway when i woke up i was in the recovery room and all i remember about that was this girl coming in annd slowly waking up saying the weirdest crap like ohlalala my back hurts. and the nurses laughing. i just sat there cause i couldnt speak.. then i got wheeled into my room id be staying at, my wonderful parents were there waiting for me. (: awww.from there they gave me morphine and blood thinners. The worst part was getting up to use the restroom for the first time and being VERY nauseas. That was the worst feeling ever!!
Since then everything has been so so. Ive lost 5 pounds so far and its only been 4 days! NO BUENO. ill have fun getting my weight back up thats for sure. i sit here and think about all the amazing food i cant wait to eat...BIG JUICY HAMBURGER, OLIVE GARDEN, CHIPOTLE, SHRIMP, SPAGHETTI AND MEATBALLS, LEELEES SANDIWCHES AYAYAY. my list can go on forever. lol

I am so grateful for my mom she has been there for me every waking moment and couldnt of done any of this without her. I hAVE my moments where im like whyd i put myself through this? i could have survived through life with a messed up jaw and not so perfect smile...but then im like NO! i couldnt i didnt have the self confidence i wanted and I KNOW THIS WAS WHY!! soo woot woot im that much closer to living awhole lot more then i was. i have pictures for everyday so far, ill be putting them on laterr.